Apple Pie

When I was about seventeen, I started believing fear is the main enemy of freedom. Biologically fear is used for surviving, it keeps you away from danger. For instance, as a gazelle looks not just helpful but logical to be afraid of lions. Nevertheless, fear has been designed for surviving, not for living. "There's more to living than only surviving" says Starting at the Sun by The Offspring. Off course you could just grab an apple and eat it, or you could use it to made a pie. The pie sounds tasty, but there's a problem about it, you need to make it, and no, the problem isn't the work it involves, but the responsibility. Everything would be in your hands, it would be your responsibility, and no one's else. And if that pie finishes as a complete mess, it would be all your fault. And suddenly you are afraid about it. You don't want your pie finishes as a mess, and you know there's a chance it would happen, specially if you haven't ever made a pie before. So, you have two options, take the risk, or not. Your primal fear tells you don't make the pie, just eat the apple, it's safer. It doesn't mean that make the pie is psychically dangerous, but there's an emotional and psychological danger in it, you don't really understand it, but you now it exists.

Every day I try to remember myself to make pies, I must admit many times I finish eating the bloody apple. But as also says the Starting at the Sun; "maybe I'm not there, but I'm still trying".